So, I put on my special shoes, fluffed the edge of my dress for the third time, took a deep breath, stared at the audience, and began to blog. The sound of all those feet clacking against the floor helped to still my rapid heartbeat. Then...what if they don’t like me? Sweat trickled down my neck and soaked the bodice of my dress, but I continued to blog. I thought I heard someone giving raspberries out there, but no, the man only sneezed—with gusto! So I re-connected with the music, and blogged some more.
Wait! Hold everything!
Umm, that’s not blogging, that’s clogging.
Or is that what the rooter man fixes?
Oh, I’m so confused. But the sweat, and the fear, and the rapid heartbeat are all the same whether I’m clogging or blogging. Dancing in front of an audience, or writing for one.
Fear!
Oooh, it’s snaking up my back right now just at the thought that my last submission will be rejected. Or that you’ll leave a comment that makes me feel less than capable. But hold everything, I hear a tad of applause…is that an audience or an editor? He has only one space left for 2012? Oh, pick me, pick me!
The heart of a writer, like that of anyone in the arts, is always asking for someone to “pick me”, please. Validate my efforts. Let me know that even though I don’t make millions clacking away, not on a proscenium, but on a keyboard, what I do is worth it. If you’re in a season, like a lot of us, when no one is applauding your efforts, rise above and remember, it’s all a matter of timing. Not even yours or the editors’, but God’s…
Hey! Pick me! Pick me!
7 comments:
Amen! :)
Sometimes I wonder if I should feel more that way. Blogging doesn't make me nervous as all. Writing doesn't cause me fear. I feel frustration, certainly, but not fear. Sure, I want people to pick me and I'm disappointed if they don't, but it doesn't cause me fear.
Oh, thank you for this slice of humor on a Monday morning, for allowing me to use my new dictionary to look up "proscenium," and for encouraging all of us to keep following our call. That's a three-bie! Wow for you!
Fear and Trepidation. Two emotions I am very familiar with :-)
Glad I have team support here at Hartline.
You're going to be a great agent because you truly understand the joys and fears the writer.
(praying for you and your family)
LoL, you've been lurking in my brain again! ;-)
Oh how I love a laugh. Glad you all enjoyed, thanks for dropping by.
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